Each time i feel lost and my world seems about to crumble down again.........i close my eyes and shut them tight.....Then i see myself lying on your shoulders...and everything...all that pain disappears momentarily......

It's been a month...i miss you like nuts. Obviously as you can see, i am occupying myself in the most serene and sensible ways ever. I am even hanging out with new people i just met. Behind that smile.....oh well....no point blabbering coz this will all be like i'm uttering gibberish language to you. Right?

Can we just end this crap like what kids play with the, "geng tak geng" thing??? Why ru so childish? Why can't we just pretend nothing ever happened in the first place? It hurts ok......i am trying so hard to forget you, clearly that's what you wanted.

Seems to me, being honest is wrong in your world. I don fucking know what you want. Each night i seek peace and solace with HIM above. True like upteen times i have said, i can't and should never ever force you for anything to happen.........................but sit down for a while Babe....think again won't you?

I miss your friendship so much. I miss the way you message me daily from morning all the way till the wee hours. I miss to see your fave smiley on my handphone. I miss getting shocked hearing my handphone beeps loudly to your messages. I miss the way you describes the surroundings. I miss the way you fart oddly. I miss of all the crazy things you would say and do. Overall, i just MISS YOU. =(

Each time i read your older messages in my folder.....tears just flows out from the corner of my eyes and i go into deep thoughts again.....to see where i really went wrong.

Please come back? Help me end all this frustrations will you?? ='(