I shall cease the entries for this blog for the time being....there's nothing much to update and i should start focussing on much more important things like myself. It's the new year afterall. I should smile no matter what they say. I don't wish for a certain asshole over there to say i ni too emo....so what right? It's my fucking blog and i'm emo because of certain shit that occured due to my carelessness. If thinking and wondering, pondering and being depressed is emo to you, then don't read. I beg you. Thanks.

What a small Singapore indeed it proved to be when sister's boyfriend turned out to know Paddles. I really dunno whether to be utterly shocked or just smile blankly at her when she told me that and all those crappy bits and shits about him. And the other day turns out equally pathetic. This Andy was playing the swing with me and he decided to ask dat certain asshole why he's no longer in touch with me....so thanks, now i know i'm too emo. And i didn't know i can be passed around like a ball. "Bes aku boleh kua ngn dier ah..." And your response, "Boleh...."

So admit it for once...i am your fucking past time right from the start. True, i have no rights to be angry with you coz i allowed for all that to happen...but which dickhead in the world wouldn't think, "why on Earth is this girl willing to spend the time with me??"

Initially i regret not knowing you much earlier..but after i saw all of what you messaged Andy....i think i regret knowing you ever. Girls are not play things nor are they toys for you to play with. I fucking hate guys...guys who are cowards in a way. Not knowing to say goodbye is one thing....leaving me to guess things is another. I should have given you that smack the other night tighter...so at least it'll leave a longer impact.

I used to say i heart........but my heart truly comes from my heart...and i don't think you deserves to be heart like that ever....nor by any other girls.....Yes i am fucking pissed now....but deep down at the corner of my heart...i know it'll take some time to forget you. YOU whom i once said to be the smartest guy i have ever known...so smart..so swit and so painfully hurting..YOU,heartbreaker...you'll never learn as much as i have taught you...neither will i.

I know despite all that i have written down here...deep down at the corner of my heart....i will heart you no matter what.....i will always treasure the moments you spent with me during my darkest hour........in a way, you're the BEST DAMNED THING that's happened to me in 2008. And i'm always here for you still........i bid you adieu......