Hmmmmm.......either i'm fucking nuts or i just don understand English or i just have too much emotions in me. By the way, i am fine...don get shock like you all do when i say i don eat or i puke way too much ate the sight of food...it's just me aite...the way i react when i am under tremendous stress. Never in my right mind have i thought this pathetic puking would come back or that wrist slashing...geesh....some people just won't change..and i'm one of them =)



Now in my heart right now...i miss a 1001 things about him. And he probably knows it too. My response towards him is always stiff and i noe it when i type the SMS...aloof...stern..monotone..Can't help it really..not that i want to. Certain things are hard to explain.The unfortunate part is, birds of the same feather all flock together and i doubt there's anyway i can make that distintive. It's almost impossible especially when i am clapping alone...no lemme say that again...it's totally impossible to do that ever.



Sometimes addiction to something is bad. Of all the things in this planet, i have to be addicted to something/someone who doesn't even appreciate. Probably, my assumption. It's half hearted. I listened to Simple Plan- Addicted this morning and felt lika sucha dick...Guess that's explainable. And i'm still going "hmmmmm"...

Hai....heartbreakers.....

"How long will i be waiting?? Until the end of time...i dunno why i'm still waiting...i can't make you mine....I'm trying to forget that, i'm addicted to you..what i wanted and i needed, i'm addicted to you...now it's over..can't forget what you say..and i never..wanna do this again...HEARTBREAKER....."


Why is friendship so complicated??? (you'll always be mine...besties. twisties.)

What am i mumbling about...i dunno....i feel so painful today...yesterday, the day before..since last week....since forever it seems...when can i stop saying "OUCH" huh??