Hey ppl..

Hello =) Been a few months hasn't it? And so Seri started 'complaining' in "Where have you been??"..."What have you been up to lately???" tone..hehe..

Nah nothing much honestly..Not that my life is something to be so wow at now. It's the 1st day of the fasting month and i was pretty psyched up to fast honestly. I don do this normally neither am i so good at this each year...but somehow this year i feel 'grown up' and i feel like i am holding my own responsibilty towards my own religion in which i have been slackening in since my younger days. Not so good huh? Unfortunately i'm suffering the same fate as the little pampered princess Seri. Geesh...

So whassup with me? Hmmm...Nothing quite pleasant...i suppose

I passed my exams with OK results. There was only 2 freaking subjects and i got Distinction for my Statistics and a Refer Coursework for my fucking stupid Introduction to Management. And if you're wondering what's that...it simply means that i have to redo the papers again! Dammit...and so i paid $200 back for it and i have yet to get the darn paper. Dunno and don care..I'm doing my Marketing and Business Strategy dis term and the papers is due next week....Best part is, i haven started much on it yer =( hmmm...i'm no good at this either...

Number 2 exciting story? No...nope..i'm still single. (No1 wants me i guess...and i don wan them too) Me and a very kewl friend...let's called her Unknown X..went to chase the Bus Guy one morning! Haahaha..the nuts of us...what did we find out? He works at town! And erm...nothing much lah..while me and this Unknown X were talking for barely 5 seconds, the next thing i noe when we turn back to look on the path walk, HE'S GONE!!!! Errrr...maybe he sensed i was tailing..rather stalking him...haha..And so that's it...Haha..it was fun really. Early morning walking getting drizzled by the rain and with the fact Unknown X agrees he's super damn drooling hotness...with "zzz" sound..hahha. What can i say right? I still have no absolute guys to pass him my number nor smile and do anything. And so i just board the bus every Friday, get a sit and occassionally stare sideway at him. Goodness...

Oh...what about Mr Nobody? Still the same. Apparently his wonderful colleagues complained to my dear psycho colleague that they tried helping but can't do much coz each time they wanna wave or say hi to me, i run away...Thing is..i don remmber it at all!! Hmm...and i turn tomato red each time i bump into him. Sigh...And so this ends here too.

I've been baking ever since Marha gave me her old oven. I baked cheesecake yesterday but it all turned out quite wrong. I think i added too much cream instead of sugar....And i still bake the occasional cupcakes once in awhile.

Talking about Hari Raya season, doubt i'll be stepping my foot over to Geyland Serai this year. I just don wanna be bumping into people. Like i say gals....i'm not done fixing myself yet....Maybe 3-4 years down i'll be ok..I pray and seriously hope so. Sometimes when i look at guys down a street, i realise that i only stare just because they are drop dead gorgeous or just for the sake of starring. Seems like my heart can't accept another torment nor does it seem to accept anyone else......ever again. It so seems that in a way, i got it all locked up. Accidentally or not, i am fine with it now. I am happy being in my own world. I mean no doubt i get lonely and cry bucket of tears at night..but there's no more arguments and there is no other form of feelings that i need to get mixed up with ever again.

Sadly i even neglect people i once share tons of joy and laughter with. Maybe i have lost that ShaSha. The only time i am truly myself is when i am with Marha. She keeps me alive and kicking as if i never had a problem before. She keeps me company like what a true friend should do and she always does her best to make me smile. And dat's all i need. Her silly antics keeps me satisfied and indeed at ease. It keeps me going...in a way. And i am OK with that too.

Another person who does that is my precious little one. Never did i expect him to be my bundle of joy in so many ways. I anticipate home just so i can carry him and sing him "lalalala". (whatever that is..he seems to like it lots..haha) I buy more things for him than his own mother does and in fact, it's always him these days. I can't wait for him to grow up so i can take him shopping and walking around..

And what more can i ask for for this time being right? Except to brace what He has given given me gracefully and thank him.

Insya allah everything will be alright....