Why is it that, amidst busy time, i still feel a lil broken? Just a lil bit broken...

I wish for this feeling of my reflection of broken image to be gone...FOREVER!

I am supposed to be over it as per my last freaking entry!!!! I hate myself. I know, relationships are just mandatory. It's hence not as important as the ones we built with our families. But why do i still feel ever so lonely? Is it just coz of the rain today? Or am i just bloody desperate?? But for wat?? I'm not fucking desperate to have a dick up my pussy aite??!! Duh...

My heart keeps skipping a bit. And did i tell you that insomnia have decided to join me in life back?? Yeah, of all times, now. When school has started. I look like a panda today. The adult ones that is. I feel i have black circle surrounding the entire eye! Glitter make-up around the whole eyes sure doesn't help at all. Makes me look more like a damn clown..and who the fuck's gonna see me anyways? I'm not a babe magnet anyhow..Oh this sucks...

My boss came back yesterday and oh boy...the shock he got when he saw me.

My colleague told me that he was taken by surprise at my weight loss! I dunno..when i look in the mirror, seems fine to me. My body and all. True i can fit into a freaking size S now..but so what right?? Not a big deal to be shrinking from M to S right?? My arms feels like twigs tho..hmm...

And btw people. I need cash like SUPER badly. The ONLY thing i can think of for now is my knitting. WILL ANYONE HELP ME BUY MY SCARVES??

Just take it that it's for charity?? Selling for $10 each. What do you say?? It's just that life's a bit mad now. With loans, laptops, net and such every month, i'm only left with less than $100 everytime. Boo