Can't wait for tomorrow. =)



Talked to Dee at work just now..told her i have kinda calm down and i thank Him above. We must always have faith in Him no matter what. To me Allah is always around watching us and though he may not respond to all our prayers immediately as we have always hoped for, He is always here for us.



My faith has been restored. Alhamdullilah. I have been whispering small prayers to Him lately, asking him to grant me the strengths and courage to move on in life. And i can already feel the calmness and courage in me. It's not what you guys think. I mean people must be probably thinking that i am only thinking of Him and such just coz i have already fallen. And it serves me right not treasuring Him and the people around me. Thing is, whatever i do is solely between me and Him. I am no show-off. Why should i be bragging to people that i go to mosque to pray or procastinate others? Won't gossiping be equivalent to sins as well??



Isn't it? Sometimes i don understand humans at all. When you don't do well religiously, they talk..even worst when you do your sums correct, even that will spark harsh talks. So whatever you do, there will always be talks. I guess people will soon talk about me. Here i am posting a pic of me in a bikini and talking about Islamic ways. I don't mind. Like i say, it's me who will bear the consequences and it will be me facing Him.....not you guys.



Anyways, i haven't really decided which school to go to. It's all too sudden you see. Well, call me impulsive, but i seriously need to occupy the time. Either for 2 and half years of just bloody plain 9 months. Which one do you reckon?? I am not even sure myself. For that 2 and half years one, it will cover 15 modules and there are LOADS of shitty subjects!!! Sighz..i don't even know if it interests me..Somehow for 9 months, it's shorter and i am familiar with the subjects they highlighted. I hope the time is enough to cover my boredom, loneliness, sadness etc...I just hope i can meet my wish list or rather, my plan list =)



I am so grateful i have a wonderful Dad in this world. I am truly thankful to Him. Last night, i was feeling the pits and my dear Dad consoled me till 12.30am. Isn't that just lovely? Now not only i have Dee, Dira, Lene, Velince or people at work....i have my family members whom i can always fall back on too. Sometimes, i just don't realise that there are tons of people who cares so much about me. I am sucha spoilt pampered bitch.



"Someday when you even appear before my life at midway, it might already be too late. I may say so much now..but who know what the future holds? I might have even forgotten about you completely....and someone else would already be here by my side to replace you....Now i am confused. Now i am skeptical and indecisive...but in the future, i pray i am mature and wiser enough to be able to make a rightful decision. You already belong to someone else now..and it is silly to be doubtful and silly to be lost at that age. Now i say this...i pray daily i won't have to face that day."



And so here i am signing off;



"Life is so short, live life as it is your last day on Earth"- Gerard Way